Day 011 - 29/09/2009
Yesterday was the fresher's ball. The biggest night of fresher's week. Tickets were £15. At one of the biggest, if not THE biggest club in southampton. Got all dressed up, spent £7 on a taxi, drank a lot of Jack Daniels before hand, spent £10 on drinks in there.
I saw my girlfriend in there. She came over to me and sat with me and all my friends. I'd already introduced her to all of my friends several nights before. She made no attempt to talk to me, even though I was trying to be all boyfriendy by talking to her, hand on the leg/round the shoulder etc etc.
She was texting me to talk to me, so I assumed she felt intimidated by all my friends so to comfort her I was texting her back. I assumed that's what she wanted.
Then we had a massive row in the club. She said I wasn't making an effort, and that I hadn't introduced my friends, and we literally just argued about stuff we had sorted out the night before. It was ridiculous to be honest.
As the saying goes, she was actually making a mountain out of a molehill.
I was very drunk but still able to string a sentence together. I told her exactly how I felt and that she needed to stop messing with my head and implying everything is my fault, because it isn't. I've made much more of an effort recently, doing everything she asked for. Popping down to see her before uni, staying at hers despite the pain it causes

p), just spending time with her even if it's just a 2 minute kiss and a cuddle 5 times a day.
She said she was going to get a taxi home and that I should go and find my friends but I couldn't. It was too late and the night was ruined. I decided to go home. As I was walking out of the club I felt a hand on my shoulder and Jon, April and Andie were there (my room mates) to see if I was okay as they saw me walking towards the exit. It was all a bit much and I burst into tears outside the club on April's shoulder. I made sure Sophie got a taxi home okay and then had a walk home with everyone which cheered me up a bit.
This morning I went down to see sophie at half 7. I didn't have lectures today so fully didn't intend on getting up until gone 12. I explained to her what I thought and I think it's all sorted. I hope this stuff doesn't happen again though. Several of my nights out have been ruined by her being completely paranoid and irrational despite having had countless conversations and discussions about it. We made sure we were both cool about stuff but alas, I guess things weren't. I don't really know what else to say.
There is toilet roll all down our halls.