What do I long for? If I allowed myself to dwell on it it would be to have a body that behaves as it used to.
Legs that don't go into spasm after I've walked a little way, a better sense of balance so that I don't bump into things and end up with bruised arms and legs. Hands that allow me to write more than a few lines and that don't tremble when I bring food up to my mouth, and a nervous system that no longer causes anxiety and depression without reason. An end to the facial (and occasionally) body neuralgia that resulted in me having all my top teeth removed because of 'toothache' 16 years ago, and which I still get

A brain that can concentrate like it used to, a short term memory that lasts a bit longer, and, most of all, one that doesn't feel cream crackered for no reason.
But, like I said, I don't dwell on it because it's not going to happen.
I could long for many things I can't change, like being 30 years younger (well at least having the body I had 30 years ago

), not being so saggy and baggy (clothes are a marvellous invention

), having more money, or a better childhood. I could long to change the past, to undo my mistakes, and I could long for the future but that kind of scares me.
So, I thought 'what if I could be someone else?', who would I long to be? Now I could go on at this point about world leaders, 'celebrities', and other icons but I decided to choose someone fictional, someone who has a great 'devil may care' attitude to life. So here is who I long to be ......
LONGING
Capt Jack (Jill) Sparrow
Learning points
1 Having a great idea at the beginning of the week doesn't mean you are going to get the picture you want
2 I hate self portraits :bang:
3 In the words of Daysleeper 'natural lighting' is a nasty word that wouldn't be allowed on TP
4 Take the picture when you think of it instead of leaving it until the Saturday by which time I was worn out, couldn't be bothered and swore a lot at the camera, tripod and husband when he 'tried to help'
